life is the way it is so whats the purpose of achieving knowledge
directly or indirectly realizing or not realizing. What is its ultimate
goal, problem solving?

The theory of problem solving! as we look at our lifes we see our life
full of challenges and ups and downs mustly everything and everyone
we come to interact we will have some kind of problem or challenge.

We cant escape from it, same goes for bliss! is such a magical high
to feel happy and radiant and amazing but all of a sudden we get tested
with a problem, god puts the problem in our eyes and lets us choose
what type of experience we will take either fixing the problem or making
it worst its pretty much the same thing for which what matter ultimately
is the experience and the free will behind choosing the outcome of the
test.

This is the original gas that pumps our existencial test of being,
repeditely this continous torrent of problems / solving is what
powers the universe and is reflected in the universe, the randomness
of choosing the path then the experience all goes along together
forming a perfect communion of experience.

we are always so trapped within our own heads and blaming the world
and everyone arounds us for our own problems but what we dont realize
is that they are there to create a Problem / Solving for us to experience
and choose, thanks to them we are alive thanks to me they are alive
so no matter how much of a hard or good test is, it is the outcome
and the experience that counts, knowing this truly calms the spirit
for which we know that it is all a test and as it comes it will pass away
to then receive another experience and on and on and on..

The ultimate truth is not really aboout choosing the right or wrong experience
but to just realize anything we do will create a channel of experience
and that is what counts the must!

remember life is very simple!!

Secretos de Magia Opulente

There is no purpose! there is no meaning! there is no
symbolism! life is life and is just is the way it is.
the way it was intended to be it is and is just is..

Like said before we are nothing but meaning making machines

I realized in order for GOD to know what he is he needs
to chip himself in many pieces and separate from himself
This separation (our soul) is the transmigration of soul
between himself and the experience, in order for him to realize
his own existence he divided himself to experience himself trough us
trough him, living the experience of life intended for the purpose
of exploration of kosmik ego.

This makes me be the must perfect and beautiful being as same as you
and plants and the planets and everything there is..

There is no right or wrong good or bad or light and dark in the realm
of the true existence of the kosmik ego, it goes beyond thought and
beyond experience...

We have no right to judge someones experience or
life for which they are living what they were meant to do to fulfill
their experience, we cant judge reality no matter how moral we feel about it
there is no guru there is no teacher there is no masters is just you!

Life is amazing if you choose

megaextremdamantesuperemputado... especialmente por la insertendrar k vendra en este futuro no lejano.

Hello so if there is anybody here that reads this come this weekend


I will be having a potluck in my house this Saturday to say goodbye to all my friends as i am relocating to new york for a while, you are welcome to come and hang out!
Please be there starting from 5
Address
1869B Mcallister St
between baker and Lyons
Go inside and all the way into the back trough the tunnel to the backyard thats where we will be!
I hope to see you there!
Guillermo

Estos ultimos dias han sido demasiadamente frustantes han sido como una maldita bomba de mala suerte, una tras otra una tras otra, ayer por la noche estaba harto de tanta mierda que ha pasado.

Todo empeso por un ataque de celos que no se si valio la pena el haberlo manifestado o no lo unico que queria era dejarle saber como me sentia y que no estaba dispuesto ha pasar por el mismo tormento que pase los meses que ese mismo episodio paso..

Mi fin no era el hacer a la otra persona sentir mal mi fin era el prevenir k esto volviera a pasar por medio de un escarmiento de emociones antes de k fuera a suceder de nuevo, en ese momento no me sentia dispues a sentir lo que senti antes no mas.

La amo y la confio eso no es el problema el problema es que causa aca un chingo de energia el estar pasando por esos momentos, sentia que eso iva a pasar, pero chale k puedo hacer..

Ahora lo unico k tengo k hacer es concentrarme en lo que estoy haciendo, chale pues tengo 4 dias mas aqui y quiero pasarmelo chido con la banda y con mis amigos tengo tantas cosas que hacer aqui en mi casa no se pordonde empesar pero bueno todo a su tiempo.

te extrano...

So finaly tonight there is people coming to see the room so whoever comes i will rent it!
I am very excited since i want to get to new york as soon as possible.

Last night i had the most horrific dream i had in a very long time, actually for the past 3 weeks i been dreaming the most intense futuristic dreams, like situations where i am involved as a grown up adult.
last night i dreamed well is bit of a long story but i wont go into details of the story but i dreamed there was a big war in the future, nobody expected it, it was an attack from an Asian Country i think it was North Korea that started it, anyways there was a sudden attack and people were talking about it that they were attacking then they were airplanes shooting eachother in the sky, actually i had the same rerun vision of airplanes shooting in the sky all the time at least 6 times i dreamed of the same scene but in different backgrounds, so as i was gazing into the sky they were people screaming and running it was about to be night like around 6 or 7 pm at night, i was really scared as the night came in, there was definitely a time line in the dream and there was the sense of time also, so as i was outside there was this type of cannon shooting airplanes, this cannon was made in the USA this guy that was next to me said to me, we have the best technology we will win, this cannon turned into this weird giant gun all robotic looking anyways it seem it was causing lots of damages to the other airplanes, so all of a sudden there was this two Giant BOMBS that looked exactly as the Atomic Bombs BIG and FAT they both came at the same time from the sky and when they were about to hit the Giant cannon i was very close and i was like FUCKKKKKKKk!!!!!!!! i am about to die so i turned around and i ran but as i ran and i turned around time stop, it was like the matrix scene where time stops but you are able to move faster than time, i ran as fast as i could but each step i took was soo! damn slow since time was stop it was like frame by frame, i felt the most horrific pain and agony i felt in a long time, the feeling that you are dying that everything you are and existed about you is about to dissapear the letting go of the self is the most horrific feeling i known so i was able to ran into this wall and i jumped to the floor as the BOMB Exploted but it wasnt fire what was shooting it was all pure destructive Light at that moment as i was in the floor the light was shooting right above my head and i could see the trail in top of my head i was like FUKCKKKKKKKKKK i am dying nooooooooooooooooooo so i started saying in my head oh god please accept me please forgive me save me please please, as the light was shooting i covered my face and my head with my left arm and i starting feeling pain as it was being burned by the radiation, i was screaming and i was feeling PAIN but wtf i never felt pain in a dream before so anyways somehow the light went away and i wasnt death, so i cowled to this place where i could see the BAY i saw the golden gate and all this airplanes shooting i was in shock then this guy came up to me and was you are hurt let me take you to safe place and he put me into this truck and was telling me fuck the chinese joined with the koreans and now india is on their side they will destroy us, and i felt a horrible feeling that they were destroying my home, i felt like horrible and i remember people always saying that USA should be invaded so that they would feel how it is to be in a war, anyways this feeling came out and i was in pain and afraid, i was alone too, they took me to this hospital that was next to the ocean so we could see everything from the windows giant tanks going into the water and helicopters and all this weird spaceships that were also flying shooting, then i saw my mom outside the Hospital she was in a van she used to have and was like Memooooo and hug me and took me to her car, then we drove to an alley and was telling me she was taking me into a safe place, but we were lost, in between the streets then somehow we were in an alley and the corner of one of our house in Cuidad Satelite in Mexico City, i was like what are we doing here? she was like is safe here then i was screaming no no no is not safe we must go back to the ocean there are people leaving the country now, we must leave then she was taking care of my arm that was completely RED but wasnt burned it was just super red but i couldnt move it, then i starting feeling a pain that was horrible that was no hope i was like fuck why why ??
then i immediately woke up i thought i was still in the dream so i started breathing really loud and paniking then i started to get calm and i realise it was just a dream i started to look at my arm and was looking for the red spot but i just felt a feeling of nomness like millions of ants crawling into my arm..

Lately i been really scared of my dreams i dont dream much is very very rare i feel when i dreamed is for a very specific reason, last time i dreamed about somebody 4 times in a row then the person told me that they were also dreaming about me the same night i was, same day freaksofnature guy tells me that he is been dreaming about me and has received messages from me from the skies but i never even met him, then my friend Tio messaged me and said man i dreamed about you 2 times, anyways there is definitely something going on a type of dream time initiation at a larger scale, the same week i received more notices of people dreaming about each other, i feel the times are getting stronger and stronger we are getting so close to the Synchronization ray as we approach (13.0.0.0.0.0) the more and more synchronizities are starting to appear it is becoming so obvious now, there is nothing we can do now but to realize it and let it flow trough us..

if theere is people that actually read this and if you are looking for a room let me know why because mine is available when now!!

Greetingz,

Here to inform you to all those room hunters, that Blue House needs a new roomate to keep my room the house has a long Trance History so somebody with the same qualities would be the best!
House has strong sense of community, vegetarian, etc people living in the house is dylalien and dan a fire performer, you will have your own entry door..
upstairs lives quasar and malia reiki master, three a visual artist, and some other roomates upstairs.
if you dont have any furniture then i might leave my stuff here such as the bed and the couch the, computer desk the chair etc all that can stay if you dont want it let me know so i can sell it or give it away.
Rent is 525 a month Plus utilities and there is a 600 deposit to move in!
Looking for somebody to move in ASAP.

life is intense with so many changes every minute..

ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY

Ayer por la noche despues de llegar a mi casa super cansado y mega estresado por todo el pinche fin de semana que fue un terror el no haber tenido mi propia privacidadm estar acorralado de banda super hasta el huevo sin hacer nada, pero bueno minimo hise una k otra cosa para distraerme y trabajae un lo de mi nuevo disco, pero de todos modos pasaron un chingo de cosas que me la pase de poka madre como hechar desmadre en la calle con la banda y causar psicomagia en todos los lugares donde ivamos.

Despues en la noche que llegue tube una discussion por internet que mas me hiso sentir encabronado porque no senti ni un pinche apoyo de nada ni de nadie osea siempre le doy mi energia y todo mi apoyo a todos pero cuando necesito apoyo o un poco de energia la pido de diferentes maneras y lo toman como insultos en lugar de ayudarme y quererme, estoy harto de esto, de siempre ser un donador de todo y siempre tener k pedir algo sin que me lo den.

i been in my computer the whole night in my friends house, there was a party for me and i just stayed here and the party was surrounded around me jeje it was supposed to be my goodbye party mexican style meantime i did some artwork while i was in the computer
i still cant believe i am really moving to new york i cant wait i am very confident in this desicion

so much happening so much surprises so much emotions...

Not much being happening this morning, woke up by a sample of timoty leary, "You can be anything this time around you can be anyone" then tommy made breakfast and also brought me some hot chocolate from the store, then i went to the backyard and check the email and did some work i had to do, is very sunny out, today just seems like one of those out of time days where there isnt much to do or any inmagination to not even start something, but still enjoying!

I have a few plans lined up for later tonight to meet with some new friends i met the other day, and also meet with rafa later on, clean the room, and ship some cds i been late to send out!

Also making plans to possibly go to Oregon this week to meet up with some friends there so hopefully it will all happen according to plan!

Now is the time to focus inward and stop partying that much and concentrate on the new beggining of what is about to come!

11:52AM

This weekends desert ritual was great, learned so much over the course of this weekend, at first i had a bad feeling of just let myself go and join, i was looking for a ride for days and nobody was willing to help me or the crew get to the desert but we were able to manage to rent a car actually two cars to fit the 11 people crew of us and some other new friends we invited to see our world.

It was such an amazing adventure, at first i was very stress because there was no ride and there was no coperation from the crew to be on top and make the organization happen fernando just laugh and jump and there was no help i think they were on mushrooms when they got here.

Anyways as we went there we picked all of our friends managed to get directions from my laptop on central square in downtown for some reason there is wireless station there which is very nice..

As we went trough the road was very nice and very relaxing, i love the way i start to think about so many thinks on the road it was such an amazing feeling i wanted to drive which makes me more gazed into the dreamtime every time i do that.

When i got there after being lost so many times in the plane mojabe desert we got there bit late so i didnt really got to see pondscum but i heard it was great, when i got there it was an overwhelming feeling i felt very strange it felt like i could touch the entire party with my hand i cant really describe it but as soon as i got there i was greeted by all the family and crew, so many people miss me and were fucking happy when the saw me that i was able to make it, also rick and amanda we party our ass off and had a fucking blast.
i played also few traks was very good to played in the desert again. my mood definitely changed and feel amazing, been eating more healthier every since i saw that quote you are what you eat, i cant stop thinking about it all the time, also some words of encouragement i got on my email
i wanted to write about the whole experience but i am so tired and just got some company here so i must cut this entry short.


Dear Guillermo,
Here is your horoscope
for Monday, November 6:

In the morning, finish any difficult tasks so in the afternoon you can go out and socialize. Those roots go deep, but the stars say it's time to polish the surfaces of your life instead of plumbing the depths.

hola sufro de lagunas mentales quiereme!
--Fernando darkodelik--

i learned something today more like i understood something well is not a new concept is something i knew when i got in the Trance Scene since i was 15 years old is that you dedicate your life to the experience, even if you try to deny it or try to cover it with other stuff is still inside you and will always be!
but why do other people are not into it as we are? what is so different about them? it seems as if we are a special breed of people that understand this, i mean i know is more than just that is a pattern of our past that made us believe and choose this experience, and not alot of people are or were exposed to this, but even when they are some dont understand it, i just hate the feeling that you feel separate to them when they ditch our musik and our scene without nothing to respect it or even try to understand it..

I try to not take it personal but i also dont want to feel alienated, i wish we had more diversity in our scene more new things to share and more sense of community, etc etc..

i invited a few friends i met last night to the desert and i explained them what it was about and they told me was crazy i mean i heard this many times and long time ago i stoped trying to convert people into our musik so i desided that if they will ever find it let them come to it..

but it has been so long since i tried to invite new people to the scene, anyways it made me feel very separate from them i know i still conect to them on a diferent level but knowing that they are not into trance musik is such a weird feeling anywways she was afraid and desided not to come..

i forget how nice and amazing life is having a laptop!
fuck yeah!
i am sitting in my backyard in the haight, day is grey no wind and bit cold just exactly like my home in mexico city oh my god i can even for some reason smell pollution cant describe it.
after been stuck in my computer for so long in my room now having the option of being free and be on wireless anywhere i want i feel is being so long since that happened when i sold my laptop two years ago i feel was an eternity..

i met an amazing person last night at the day of the death!!!